under the knife

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real...(without a sense of confidence and i'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say
Take this all the way
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed...Forgetting All the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well
Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself

Yeah here we go for the hundredth time
Hand grenade pins in every line
Throw 'em up and let something shine...Fuck this hurts I won't lie
Doesn't matter how hard I try
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself

And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard...I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again

Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge...Wish I could find a way to disappear

In the middle of my thoughts
Taken far from my safety
The picture is there
The memory won’t escape me

There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow