over my head

I've been in a bad mood for a while.
By a while, I dont mean a few days, or weeks, but months, months and months and months.
A few weeks ago I almost lost it, becasue I hold back how I feel, like when all I want to do is scream or cry( you know when you dont let your emotions take control of you, and one day you just blow up? Yeah..)
After fourth period, I ran into someone Im friends with, and figured would be there for me, so when they asked me how I was, I immediatly started tearing up; they didnt even try and comfort me. It flet like a slap in the face, and pretty much shut me up.
Needless to stay, I didnt bother talking about it with anyone else.

louder than thunder

When I get my own place eventualy, I want to get a bunch of book cases and fill them completly with books, both old and new.
Theres something comforting about books.

the fall of ideals

what i say, i dont want to believe

sol·i·tude   

–noun
1.the state of being or living alone; seclusion: to enjoy one's solitude.
2.remoteness from habitations, as of a place; absence of human activity: the solitude of the mountains.
3.a lonely, unfrequented place: a solitude in the mountains

pain is the only thing i fear, scars are the only thing i see

you threw the spark that lit the candle

how fucking creepy is this?

honestly, it scares the shit out of me.

home for a rest

So get ready to run

it amazes me how lucky some people are,
and how unlucky others can be

Read between the lines.
As walls fall down (louder than thunder) if it means alot to you, in the end.

tears dont fall

The night is full of holes
As bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle as the
Boys play rock and roll
They know they can’t dance
At least they know

you fucked our trust

I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you ...

We've broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care ...
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
'Cause I've found god

we couldnt wait to get outside the world

I did not want you to join this culture.

So how can you be so proud?
Pray to the heavens, with whatever it takes.

oh it's what you do to me

tell me how it feels
to watch the walls of your security crumble
i remember you
you took the easy way out when i gave you something to stand for

the words that we have chosen

read between the lines
we can't give in this time
just let me go for now i'll be just fine

you should know your faith by now

iuno what to do..
fuck

faithless

so as of last friday, my house was sold.
they moved in and everything.
now if i wanna go, i have to knock..
that house is no longer mine.
did a last clean out, last sunday.
needless to say the new owners will be walking into their new master bedroom with an irish poem written on their wall.
jeanne gave her key back.. fuck that though. im still keeping mine, even though it wouldnt work.
I cant believe its done though, two months ago i was clearing shit out of the basment with my cousins, and now its currently occupied with a younger couple.

patterns of a horizon

i didnt think it was possible to ever miss someone so much.

paper wings

work on monday is soooo pointless but probably the best since i actualy get to talk to the people i work with, more so than i normally would

deny everything you know

break wasnt bad at all. the begining was probably the best, especially sunday night/monday.
downtown oakville(L)
but school.. fuck it?

pain for pleasure

it amazes me the amount of shit that i can get away with, comapred to so many people i know.
so many parents would kill their kids for not comming home one night( well more like many nights) and only leaving a voicemail to let them know, not to mention on a school night. than again, i can almost guarantee that my mom wouldnt notice i was gone, if i didnt leave a voicemail, because she leaves for work before i even wake up on most days and she doesnt come into my room at all.

Than again, most parents dont forget that their kids arent home, and will be comming home that night, and lock them out.

you were there for everything

I feel like a broken record, so I dont talk about it.
That doesnt mean the pain isn't there.

sailing in the dark

106 days

this songs for you

52 years ago today, you were born.
51 years later, you died.

Happy-would be- birthday daddy

I love you and I miss you<3

For once your web of lies is in the open

i hate those words that trigger a painful memory.
 words that come up everyday, more than once and theres nothing you can do to avoid them

there's nowhere left to run

It disgusts me that in 9/10 years there's been no improvement

i'm on the edge of the rooftop thinking nobody will ever know

94 days

 its getting harder

speak of the devil

Last night
holy shit
amazing
fucking incredible
the energy I was around, you couldnt help but cheer
Its amazing hoq quickly moods can change within a second.
I was at work, needless to say, and seeing as its kindve a sports bar-ish vibe the game was all over on every tv.
After the game was over, i think the national anthem was sung about 3 times
Hugs and high fives went around like everyone knew eachother.
People cam say all they want about how it was pathetic and bad how they let a goal in in the last 30 or something seconds but it only made the game more interesting, and we still won and it was still a great game.
I Love being Canadian:)