there are things that I've seen I don't believe

Someone said to me once, that it would be worse if the mom were to die, instead of the dad.
I think they can go fuck themselves. 

My dad was a big part of my life. Even though he was a father, a man, doesn't mean he wasn't capable of being the "nurturer".. or like a mother figure.. which i guess is why some people think that losing a mom would be worse. My dad had so much compassion, love and care for people.
I don't think its right, to base whether a loss is worse or not, based on the gender of the person.
What matters, is how much that person meant to the people they love and who loved them.

I miss my dad all the time and i think about him constantly. Not a day goes by where i don't think about him, or the day he passed away, the days leading up to it, everything.
Last night i broke down at work , i couldn't help it. i guess i had to let it out.. at least some fraction of what im feeling.

I feel like I'm stuck and i don't know where to go, or what to do.

its been 365 days, a whole year.
r.i.p