sweet dreams

i dont understand why i had to loose my dad. i know he would have died eventualy but 51, regardless of what others say, is too young.
i dont understand how people who really wouldn't care if their mom or dad died, and would only feel sad because there their parent, not because they actualy cared, and yet their parent(s) stay alive for the typical life span of 80-100 years.
and yet, people like me, who are really close with their parent(s), have to loose one or both, years too soon.
i dont find it fair.