freaks

today,
a character on one of my favourite shows,
a time,
an msn name.

i hate when people say theyll do something and dont fall through with it.
i hate the feeling of being ditched or not worthy,
and its been happening too often lately.

an event on the weekend made me think that im not worth anything to any of you. especialy considering how it related more to me than another person who said it doesnt matter.
how would you feel if everyone knows whats going on and youre the only person being lied to? the ONE person in the entire room who cant know, and as it turn out, i already knew to being with.

in one of my recent posts i hoped for something that, turns out, didnt come true.
its amazing what well do to give ourselves a sense of hope, even though we know its fake.